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[Jul. 11th, 2006|03:07 pm] |
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| | Crooked Teeth | ] |
Before I start with my quizzes, I want to give a quick update.
I have an amazing internship, probably better than I could have ever imagined. I work at Make-A-Wish and I'm actually trusted with a lot of secret information and responsibility. I absolutely love it! I know, and I mean KNOW, that this is what I'm meant to do with my life. I just know it. I absolutely love knowing that I am making a difference, and I have so much fun. I know every non-profit isn't going to be just like the MAWFLA, but hopefully the experience will be similar.
I'm scared of growing up. In two semesters I'll be walking away from UL, my second home for the past 3 years, and starting another chapter of my life. I don't know where I'll be, although ALSAC doesn't have many job opportunities anywhere appealing to me right now (Missouri just isn't for me), so if that stays like that I'll use my connections (I HAVE ALSAC CONNECTIONS!) or I'll try to get a job with a local hospital in their development department, or even any other non-profit. By then I should have a couple internships, and a couple thousand dollars raised in fundraisers I headed, so I really will be able to sell myself and be desirable by anyone.
My friends have all been amazing. I love them. I'm really happy I met all of them, this past school year was the best yet.
I don't know what else to say, so here's my quizzes.
| Your Political Profile: | | Overall: 30% Conservative, 70% Liberal | | Social Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal | | Personal Responsibility: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal | | Fiscal Issues: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal | | Ethics: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal | | Defense and Crime: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal |
| You Have A Type A- Personality |
You are one of the most balanced people around
Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want
You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you.
When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back
Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love!
You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds |
| Your Lucky Underwear is Blue | 
You are caring and extroverted. You've made relationships your number one focus, and your lucky blue underwear can bring some balance to them.
You thrive in one-on-one situations. You are a good listener and a natural born therapist.
Sometimes you let the concerns of others become too important in your life, leading to stress and worry.
If you want more balance, put on your blue underpants. They'll help you take care of yourself first. |
| Your 2006 Summer Anthem Is | 
Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield
"No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins" |
| Your 1920's Name is: | 
Zola Tessie |
| You are Ocean Blue | 
You're both warm and practical. You're very driven, but you're also very well rounded.
You tend to see both sides to every issue, and people consider you a natural diplomat. |
I've got to get going to orientation now. If you have any ink cartridges or old cell phones, let me know. |
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[May. 27th, 2006|12:05 am] |
-I feel like my having a livejournal is a waste. I haven't written in forever.
-Ended the semester with over a 3.5 GPA, but not what I wanted. Oh well. If I have 3 more 4.0 semesters I might finally get my cum GPA over a 3.5, which is all I want.
-I had my surgery. Some complications, but I'm alive. I have to go to the doctor once a week until I start healing correctly. Lots of wasted milage and gas. Ugh.
-I have an interview with Make a Wish on Tuesday. Eek.
-I don't feel like writing, can you tell?
-I have a headache.
-I'm going to sleep. |
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| oops |
[Apr. 6th, 2006|02:28 pm] |
I figure a few of my friends read this, and since I don't feel like having a phone tree, this is how I'll get information out to some of you.
I've been sick for a while, and I didn't know why. I went to an ENT and he immediately sent me for a CT scan of my brain, head and sinuses. I've written all this before, but I'm refreshing your memory.
I got my results back today.
Sit down.
And it's not as bad as it sounds.
I have cysts in one of my sinus cavities on my face. I think it's the right side. When I looked at the cat scan it was on the left, so I'm assuming it's the opposite. That and I forgot what the doctor said. Anyways, these sinus cavities aren't exactly big. Like your face isn't that big so the cavities obviously aren't. One of the cysts is a little bigger than 3mm, which is about half the size of this cavity. From the cat scan we could also see two more in that same cavity.
They should be benign. There's only a slim chance they're malignant. I have to have a biopsy to know that much. I also have been recommended to have surgery. If I don't, I won't die (unless they're malignant) but I will always have problems with my sinuses. So, I'll probably have the surgery. I want to do it in the first week of May, so I'm going to try to study really hard for my finals during the spring break and have my teachers let me take my finals early.
They must have to accomodate me in such a situation.
It's going to hurt. I've had nasal reconstruction before for sinuses. Scale of 1-10 on page, it was an 11. I was really bad off for a few days, and, yes, like any surgery I felt better eventually... but God I just wanted to die from that pain.
So, I'm not happy about this. I'm glad to know what's actually wrong with me, though. That's really a relief. I'm not a hypochondriac. I'm just sickly.
Presents, including balloons, and flowers will be graciously accepted the day and weeks following surgery. Also, you are allowed to visit me in the hospital room before the surgery. I heard I'm not so much of a picnic after surgery (I'm a bitch, or I don't recognize you).
Thank you for reading and have a pleasant day. |
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[Apr. 3rd, 2006|11:24 pm] |
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| |  tired | ] |
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| | Gravity - John MayerTrio | ] |
What I want for the upcoming year (organization-wise):
I am currently the Fundraising Chair for the 2006-2007 Up 'til Dawn E-Board
I would like to be Events Chair, or Historian Chair for UPC
I would like to be Vice-President for ICS
I would like to be Treasurer for SGM
I would like to be a Member at Large (or probably nothing at all) for GBP
Is that too much? |
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| We're getting there |
[Mar. 30th, 2006|11:46 pm] |
Sitting on Elise's bed and not feeling up to par, but not feeling as crappy as I've been lately.
My prescriptions:
2 kinds of painkillers for my headaches (both with codeine, one is Tylenol 3 and I'm apparently allergic)
1 muscle relaxer, also a narcotic
Allegra (for the rest of my life)
Just finished up a round of antibiotics
Just finished up a round of steroids
I'm now on vitamins
It's been fun.
But, yea, I've missed a few Spanish classes, a Spanish test, a Communication's test, and an English class. Not too much (especially compared to Elise), but enough to throw me off track. Next week is going to be crazy, and I'm not thinking about it until tomorrow.
Ice Age 2 comes out tomorrow, but since all noise hurts I won't go see it until I'm better. Any takers?
Did I mention I had a CT scan today? One of my head, my brain, and my sinuses. The first two I'm thinking are the same thing, because the scan took a little longer than the sinus one. And it was brighter. My insurance company loves me, I'm sure. Thank goodness Dad is working solely for my insurance needs.
I'm tired of school. April is in a few days and I need to really start my 39292 source papers (I've got two of them). Ugh.
This week:
Monday - Rough Draft due in English
Tuesday - History test
Wednesday - Final draft due in English, Spanish test
One day I'm sure I'll have to make up that Comm test. Ugh again.
But the pain is bearable. Please note, I'm sure the pain would not be bearable for someone that hasn't endured the pain for 1.5-3 weeks. I'm now becoming an endurance queen. Ignoring them for the greater good. Trust me, it's for the greater good.
Just wish me luck on this week and on getting better. My next ENT appointment is Thursday (great fun) and I'll know more then. But until Thursday I've got a world of crap to do. Gr.
I love you. |
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| Small breaks |
[Mar. 13th, 2006|02:30 pm] |
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| | basketball bouncing | ] |
The week from hell is over. I cried on Friday, to the point where I went over to Danielle's for a little comforting. I accidentally found both of their myspaces and it just made me miserable. But, in a way, now that I've passed the 10th, I feel as if I really am moving on. It's as if I just had to have that one day to grieve just a little more. And, I'm done.
The alcohol didn't hurt.
My friends taking care of me this week didn't hurt either. They really are good to me, I'm pretty lucky.
So all and all a good time. I have pictures from Friday on facebook. I don't know the next time we're going out, but Friday night will hold me over until my antibiotics wear off. I was drunk off a daiq and a shot because of those meds. Nice. Cheap drunk.
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This week isn't so bad. I had an essay and a presentation due today. Fun. I have a paper due tomorrow, more fun. Then I have a rough draft due on Wednesday, still fun. But, then that's it. I mean, on top of regular Spanish homework and whatnot. Not too bad. On Monday I have a paper due, but if I actually write the rough draft, that won't be too hard either. Not a bad week. This semester seems easy for some reason. Don't get me wrong, I have a flippin B in Theories, a B in Spanish, a B in Ethics, an A in History and an A in English. Ethics is hard, I'll be happy with a B or up. Spanish is the same way. But, if I do not get an A in Theories I'll be livid. It's hard, but it's memorization and applying. It's one of my foundation classes (kinda). I can so do this. It's just a B because I didn't do too great on the second test, which was a bitch in every single way. So, I'm not too devastated. My group paper and my research paper should bring it up a bit. If I ever start either.
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Well I have to go to Ethics now and practically sleep through it. That's such a boring class, and studying for that final is gonna be a bitch (to the point where I think I'm gonna start studying this month). Grr, I can't wait. |
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| The sun will come out tomorrow |
[Mar. 9th, 2006|10:02 pm] |
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So tomorrow is THE day. Tomorrow is the day I've been dreading for months. It's the "I hate boys because they make me cry day." It's "get so intoxicated because boys suck day." It's a bad bad day. BUT it might not be that bad. I've cried a few times this week, but it hasn't been that bad. My friends have kept me busy, my friends have been supportive. I love them.
Tomorrow me and Danielle are gonna go eat lunch in the park and feed the ducks. Then we're gonna go get my car washed.
After that we might go shopping, I'm not too sure.
At some point I'm meeting up with Bobbi to get massages. Yay.
Around 4:30 we're gonna get pedicures.
Around 5 I need to start getting ready for my 6:00 dinner for Stephanie's Birthday. Light makeup and capris and a shirt.
At 6 is dinner at Coyote Ugly.
At 7 is dinner at Pasado's for Brittany's Birthday. I'm eating and hanging out with her until around 9. Then I'm going to Danielle's to get ready. We're doing the smokey eye look. AKA "slutting it up." My goal is to wear capris, my polka dot shoes and a shirt that matches those shoes (if I can find one somewhere in the mall).
So, I don't think it's going to be horrid. I'm actually pretty confident that I'll be ok.
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On another note, Elise has been in the hospital for a couple of days, but she should be released tomorrow or Saturday. YAY ELISE. We were gonna go see her Saturday, but if she's getting released we won't worry about that. We heart Elise! Yay for recoveries!!!!! |
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| Grrrrrr |
[Mar. 6th, 2006|06:14 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Baton Rouge - Garth Brooks | ] |
I find it funny that in the past two days I have helped two people with breakups and have told them both "time heals all." That's the exact quote Laura gave me a few months ago when the Kristin-Robert thing first upset me. (I went through old journals and read a few. Always fun and depressing.) But, I think it's funny because here I am still a mess. Time is trying its best to heal... I'm a work in progress.
I know I haven't been a constant mess. I know this week just poses a lot of extra stress. I know this week is just the first of many weeks where I need to face the truth instead of just knowing about it.
God I'm glad I have good friends.
A tear for good luck.
I'm just sick of boys in general. I love them to death, but I don't think I'll ever love like I loved Robert. I don't think I'll ever put so much trust in a boy again. And, you know what, maybe I will. Right now, I'm just doubting it. Just like I don't really trust friends anymore.
Kristin was really a bitch to do what she did. No, I didn't have claim over him or anything of the sort. But she shouldn't have consoled me during the summer if she was going to hook up with him in the Fall. I'm sorry, that's not how it should work. And now I have a suspicion in the back of my head about all my friends. I'm more aware of their presence and I'm waiting for that moment when they screw me over. "I didn't mean it to happen." "I thought you would like to know, if it was me I would like to know."
YOU'RE A FUCKING WHORE.
I hope the sex is good. God knows I wouldn't know.
I think that hurts too. No, I don't know if he's having sex, but I have the big suspicion once again. And the fact that I was with him for over three years and I didn't share that with him, and she was probably with him for two minutes before she did.
I don't know if it was his main goal to stab me in the heart when he went after her, but he did.
I don't know if it was her main goal to stab ne in the back when she liked him back, but she did.
And that's the way life works. You're friends with people to see what you can get from them. What they have that you want, and how you can steal it.
I have nothing else to steal. I have a bruised heart and a broken spirit.
I think I'd like to keep it that way.
I just need a cuddle buddy. If I ordered one today, would he be delivered in time for Friday? |
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